Did you know I was crying?

I texted you today just to check inDid you know I was crying? I needed to talk, but the words felt so numb. Did you know I was crying? I'm afraid of being awkward or bringing you pain so I hold it in in hopes of a distraction. Did you know I was crying? I couldn't see the screen so I couldn't say much and my soul was screaming please notice I'm dying. Did you know I was crying?

I went out today with my sunglasses on Did you know I was crying? The world moves on and I'm stuck here breaking Did you know I was crying? Simple things that use to take no effort now leave me exhausted and empty. Did you know I was crying? Everything reminds me of him. The tears fall behind my glasses and I try to stay standing. Did you know I was crying?

I laid on my side as you slept beside me. Did you know I was crying? The night is so hard and the dark is engulfing. Did you know I was crying? My thoughts race and I replay that day in my head one thousand times. I can't sleep. Did you know I was crying? I feel so alone, the emptiness is suffocating me and the pain makes it hard to breathe. Did you know I was crying?

I smiled today and I showed the world. After I was crying. I want to choose joy, but sometimes it's hard. Did you know I was crying? I try to figure out how to live this new life and put one foot in front of the other. Did you know I was crying? My laughter doesn't mean the pain has gone away. I still miss him with every beat of my heart; that will never change. Did you know I was crying?

Behind the screen, behind the smile, behind the dark now you know I am crying.